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HOW I GOT INTO SCIENTOLOGY AND WHY I GOT OUT -- ILLUSTRATED INTERVIEW WITH JASON BEGHE |
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A congress is a meeting that LRH had, starting in the early 1960s, and he would get a group of people together and he would give a series of lectures on "X." And usually it was all about Clearing. All the congresses had to do with Clearing. Remember that I'm talking about the congresses.
I'm going to give you an unabridged version. Is that okay? Q. Sure. A. You sure? When I was in that TRs course, my very first week in Scientology -- now again, I'm an actor, so communication is something I kind of do for a living -- and so that's a whole course about communication. So I thought I'm pretty good at this naturally. And one of the exercises they use is Alice in Wonderland, which is full of these wild kind of sentences, and you take it, you read it to yourself, then you deliver it as your own. That's a TR1. A TR2 is properly acknowledge somebody. So they say, "Off with your head," and you say, "Thank you" to make sure they know it, and end it, and there's all these other things. Now, here I was doing this TR, and it happened to be TR2. And somebody said, "Off with your head," and I said, "My God!" and they flunked me. And I said, "Why?" And they said, "Because it's just supposed to be 'thank you.'" I said, "No. Read the fucking thing. It says 'appropriate acknowledgment.' If somebody says, 'Off with your head' -- why do you think he chose Alice in Wonderland?'" And they bring the head technical person of the place, and they're all invalidating the shit out of me, and I'm sticking to my guns. I finally am crying, and I said, "You guys are fucking wrong! Who the fuck talks like that? 'Thank you. I got it. Okay. Good. Wow.' That would be way too much, 'Wow. I totally duplicate that.'"
This is the way you're supposed to talk. I'm really talking to you, but do you see how I'm not? So this is perfect in terms of their idea. 'Alright, I got it.' So that was GOOD TR. It wasn't excellent. Excellent TRs is more like this: you know, you're really conversational, but I'm not moving, and I'm really looking at you ready for everything, and I don't blink and your eyes stink.
So it's that kind of fucking deal. Sum gum war sue up. That's just a private joke. You know that one, right? Moo gum guy pan. These are words so you can talk gibberish in Scientology to help you learn your TRs. And one of the things written down is sum gum war sue up. That's not a sentence. It's written like Chinese, "Sum." Anyway, so I'm in there and I'm fucking crying and shit, blah blah blah. So finally I stop and I toe the line, and I'm "Thank you. Okay. Good."
And then about four years later, in some event, COB David Miscavige says, "Hey, there's been this big breakthrough in this Gold major tech -- fucking piece of shit! -- and here's the real thing! People have been doing the improper acknowledgement. You're supposed to have, it says 'appropriate acknowledgement.'" And they have LRH on tape saying, you know, somebody says "Off with your head," and he goes, "My God! That's the right way to do it!" So here I was, this guy, first day of school and I had it right.
Now, Cut 2. You're asking me how I got out. So I'm in the fucking thing, and they keep telling me I gotta do this action. And I gotta do this. And you gotta do this sec checking, and all this shit. And I'm like "You fucking people! I wouldn't show up here if I wasn't ready." And they would be sec checking, which is basically asking me for my crimes, and charging me thousands -- I probably paid $50,000 in sec checks to get this shit together -- because everything was fucked up, so it must be that I'M fucked up. And I kept saying, "These sec checks are killing me!" * And they'd say, "This is the standard tech now. This is the gold major tech." And I finally said, "You know something motherfuckers?
I don't care! You could get LRH to fly down here, back from fucking Target 2, and tell me that I am fucking doing it wrong. I am not going in session and doing this shit. You guys are fucking killing me! I am here to tell you: YOU ARE FUCKING ME UP! So I'm out of here until you fucking wake up. Okay?" And then they'd come back to my house and they're offering me free auditing. I said, "Show me where free auditing is standard? You're not giving me standard tech, and now you want to fix it by moron standard shit? Get the fuck out of here!" You ask Griffee Blythe and the whole rest of those motherfuckers at AO if this is a lie.
It's the fucking truth. And I'm out! And I just went on course because I couldn't take any more of this fucking auditing. It was killing me. So then they come out with this thing, "Jason, you HAVE to see this!"
I wouldn't even go to events, because me, I'm at an event, and everybody's like, "Hey, how you doing?" And I go, "GOOD!"
I just couldn't fucking lie anymore. I'm ready to fucking die! And I told them, "I'm not going. I can't participate." Because my role was like "Jason Beghe!"
I couldn't be like "Yeah, well, to tell you the truth, I'm fucked up! I hate OT5, and everything's going fucking shitty, and it's not fucking working, and it's costing me a shitload of money! And I'm more unhappy than I've ever been in my entire fucking life! _______________ * See "The Technical Bulletins of Dianetics and Scientology," by L. Ron Hubbard
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