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CHAPTER 5
What had passed between Smilash
and Henrietta remained unknown except to themselves. Agatha had seen
Henrietta clasping his neck in her arms, but had not waited to hear the
exclamation of "Sidney, Sidney," which followed, nor to see him press
her face to his breast in his anxiety to stifle her voice as he said,
"My darling love, don't screech I implore you. Confound it, we shall
have the whole pack here in a moment. Hush!"
"Don't leave me again, Sidney,"
she entreated, clinging faster to him as his perplexed gaze, wandering
towards the entrance to the shrubbery, seemed to forsake her. A din of
voices in that direction precipitated his irresolution.
"We must run away, Hetty," he
said "Hold fast about my neck, and don't strangle me. Now then." He
lifted her upon his shoulder and ran swiftly through the grounds. When
they were stopped by the wall, he placed her atop of it, scrabbled over,
and made her jump into his arms. Then he staggered away with her across
the fields, gasping out in reply to the inarticulate remonstrances which
burst from her as he stumbled and reeled at every hillock, "Your weight
is increasing at the rate of a stone a second, my love. If you stoop you
will break my back. Oh, Lord, here's a ditch!"
"Let me down," screamed
Henrietta in an ecstasy of delight and apprehension. "You will hurt
yourself, and—Oh, DO take—"
He struggled through a dry
ditch as she spoke, and came out upon a grassy place that bordered the
towpath of the canal. Here, on the bank of a hollow where the moss was
dry and soft, he seated her, threw himself prone on his elbows before
her, and said, panting:
"Nessus carrying off Dejanira
was nothing to this! Whew! Well, my darling, are you glad to see me?"
"But—"
"But me no buts, unless you
wish me to vanish again and for ever. Wretch that I am, I have longed
for you unspeakably more than once since I ran away from you. You didn't
care, of course?"
"I did. I did, indeed. Why did
you leave me, Sidney?"
"Lest a worse thing might
befall. Come, don't let us waste in explanations the few minutes we have
left. Give me a kiss."
"Then you are going to leave me
again. Oh, Sidney—"
"Never mind to-morrow, Hetty.
Be like the sun and the meadow, which are not in the least concerned
about the coming winter. Why do you stare at that cursed canal, blindly
dragging its load of filth from place to place until it pitches it into
the sea—just as a crowded street pitches its load into the cemetery?
Stare at ME, and give me a kiss."
She gave him several, and said
coaxingly, with her arm still upon his shoulder: "You only talk that way
to frighten me, Sidney; I know you do."
"You are the bright sun of my
senses," he said, embracing her. "I feel my heart and brain wither in
your smile, and I fling them to you for your prey with exultation. How
happy I am to have a wife who does not despise me for doing so—who
rather loves me the more!"
"Don't be silly," said
Henrietta, smiling vacantly. Then, stung by a half intuition of his
meaning, she repulsed him and said angrily, "YOU despise ME."
"Not more than I despise
myself. Indeed, not so much; for many emotions that seem base from
within seem lovable from without."
"You intend to leave me again.
I feel it. I know it."
"You think you know it because
you feel it. Not a bad reason, either."
"Then you ARE going to leave
me?"
"Do you not feel it and know
it? Yes, my cherished Hetty, I assuredly am."
She broke into wild
exclamations of grief, and he drew her head down and kissed her with a
tender action which she could not resist, and a wry face which she did
not see.
"My poor Hetty, you don't
understand me."
"I only understand that you
hate me, and want to go away from me."
"That would be easy to
understand. But the strangeness is that I LOVE you and want to go away
from you. Not for ever. Only for a time."
"But I don't want you to go
away. I won't let you go away," she said, a trace of fierceness mingling
with her entreaty. "Why do you want to leave me if you love me?"
"How do I know? I can no more
tell you the whys and wherefores of myself than I can lift myself up by
the waistband and carry myself into the next county, as some one
challenged a speculator in perpetual motion to do. I am too much a
pessimist to respect my own affections. Do you know what a pessimist
is?"
"A man who thinks everybody as
nasty as himself, and hates them for it."
"So, or thereabout. Modern
English polite society, my native sphere, seems to me as corrupt as
consciousness of culture and absence of honesty can make it. A canting,
lie-loving, fact-hating, scribbling, chattering, wealth-hunting,
pleasure-hunting, celebrity-hunting mob, that, having lost the fear of
hell, and not replaced it by the love of justice, cares for nothing but
the lion's share of the wealth wrung by threat of starvation from the
hands of the classes that create it. If you interrupt me with a silly
speech, Hetty, I will pitch you into the canal, and die of sorrow for my
lost love afterwards. You know what I am, according to the conventional
description: a gentleman with lots of money. Do you know the wicked
origin of that money and gentility?"
"Oh, Sidney; have you been
doing anything?"
"No, my best beloved; I am a
gentleman, and have been doing nothing. That a man can do so and not
starve is nowadays not even a paradox. Every halfpenny I possess is
stolen money; but it has been stolen legally, and, what is of some
practical importance to you, I have no means of restoring it to the
rightful owners even if I felt inclined to. Do you know what my father
was?"
"What difference can that make
now? Don't be disagreeable and full of ridiculous fads, Sidney dear. I
didn't marry your father."
"No; but you married—only
incidentally, of course—my father's fortune. That necklace of yours was
purchased with his money; and I can almost fancy stains of blood."
"Stop, Sidney. I don't like
this sort of romancing. It's all nonsense. DO be nice to me."
"There are stains of sweat on
it, I know."
"You nasty wretch!"
"I am thinking, not of you, my
dainty one, but of the unfortunate people who slave that we may live
idly. Let me explain to you why we are so rich. My father was a shrewd,
energetic, and ambitious Manchester man, who understood an exchange of
any sort as a transaction by which one man should lose and the other
gain. He made it his object to make as many exchanges as possible, and
to be always the gaining party in them. I do not know exactly what he
was, for he was ashamed both of his antecedents and of his relatives,
from which I can only infer that they were honest, and, therefore,
unsuccessful people. However, he acquired some knowledge of the cotton
trade, saved some money, borrowed some more on the security of his
reputation for getting the better of other people in business, and, as
he accurately told me afterwards, started FOR HIMSELF. He bought a
factory and some raw cotton. Now you must know that a man, by laboring
some time on a piece of raw cotton, can turn it into a piece of
manufactured cotton fit for making into sheets and shifts and the like.
The manufactured cotton is more valuable than the raw cotton, because
the manufacture costs wear and tear of machinery, wear and tear of the
factory, rent of the ground upon which the factory is built, and human
labor, or wear and tear of live men, which has to be made good by food,
shelter, and rest. Do you understand that?"
"We used to learn all about it
at college. I don't see what it has to do with us, since you are not in
the cotton trade."
"You learned as much as it was
thought safe to teach you, no doubt; but not quite all, I should think.
When my father started for himself, there were many men in Manchester
who were willing to labor in this way, but they had no factory to work
in, no machinery to work with, and no raw cotton to work on, simply
because all this indispensable plant, and the materials for producing a
fresh supply of it, had been appropriated by earlier comers. So they
found themselves with gaping stomachs, shivering limbs, and hungry wives
and children, in a place called their own country, in which,
nevertheless, every scrap of ground and possible source of subsistence
was tightly locked up in the hands of others and guarded by armed
soldiers and policemen. In this helpless condition, the poor devils were
ready to beg for access to a factory and to raw cotton on any conditions
compatible with life. My father offered them the use of his factory, his
machines, and his raw cotton on the following conditions: They were to
work long and hard, early and late, to add fresh value to his raw cotton
by manufacturing it. Out of the value thus created by them, they were to
recoup him for what he supplied them with: rent, shelter, gas, water,
machinery, raw cotton—everything, and to pay him for his own services as
superintendent, manager, and salesman. So far he asked nothing but just
remuneration. But after this had been paid, a balance due solely to
their own labor remained. 'Out of this,' said my father, 'you shall keep
just enough to save you from starving, and of the rest you shall make me
a present to reward me for my virtue in saving money. Such is the
bargain I propose. It is, in my opinion, fair and calculated to
encourage thrifty habits. If it does not strike you in that light, you
can get a factory and raw cotton for yourselves; you shall not use
mine.' In other words, they might go to the devil and starve—Hobson's
choice!—for all the other factories were owned by men who offered no
better terms. The Manchesterians could not bear to starve or to see
their children starve, and so they accepted his terms and went into the
factory. The terms, you see, did not admit of their beginning to save
for themselves as he had done. Well, they created great wealth by their
labor, and lived on very little, so that the balance they gave for
nothing to my father was large. He bought more cotton, and more
machinery, and more factories with it; employed more men to make wealth
for him, and saw his fortune increase like a rolling snowball. He
prospered enormously, but the work men were no better off than at first,
and they dared not rebel and demand more of the money they had made, for
there were always plenty of starving wretches outside willing to take
their places on the old terms. Sometimes he met with a check, as, for
instance, when, in his eagerness to increase his store, he made the men
manufacture more cotton than the public needed; or when he could not get
enough of raw cotton, as happened during the Civil War in America. Then
he adapted himself to circumstances by turning away as many workmen as
he could not find customers or cotton for; and they, of course, starved
or subsisted on charity. During the war-time a big subscription was got
up for these poor wretches, and my father subscribed one hundred pounds,
in spite, he said, of his own great losses. Then he bought new machines;
and, as women and children could work these as well as men, and were
cheaper and more docile, he turned away about seventy out of every
hundred of his HANDS (so he called the men), and replaced them by their
wives and children, who made money for him faster than ever. By this
time he had long ago given up managing the factories, and paid clever
fellows who had no money of their own a few hundreds a year to do it for
him. He also purchased shares in other concerns conducted on the same
principle; pocketed dividends made in countries which he had never
visited by men whom he had never seen; bought a seat in Parliament from
a poor and corrupt constituency, and helped to preserve the laws by
which he had thriven. Afterwards, when his wealth grew famous, he had
less need to bribe; for modern men worship the rich as gods, and will
elect a man as one of their rulers for no other reason than that he is a
millionaire. He aped gentility, lived in a palace at Kensington, and
bought a part of Scotland to make a deer forest of. It is easy enough to
make a deer forest, as trees are not necessary there. You simply drive
off the peasants, destroy their houses, and make a desert of the land.
However, my father did not shoot much himself; he generally let the
forest out by the season to those who did. He purchased a wife of gentle
blood too, with the unsatisfactory result now before you. That is how
Jesse Trefusis, a poor Manchester bagman, contrived to be come a
plutocrat and gentleman of landed estate. And also how I, who never did
a stroke of work in my life, am overburdened with wealth; whilst the
children of the men who made that wealth are slaving as their fathers
slaved, or starving, or in the workhouse, or on the streets, or the
deuce knows where. What do you think of that, my love?"
"What is the use of worrying
about it, Sidney? It cannot be helped now. Besides, if your father saved
money, and the others were improvident, he deserved to make a fortune."
"Granted; but he didn't make a
fortune. He took a fortune that others made. At Cambridge they taught me
that his profits were the reward of abstinence—the abstinence which
enabled him to save. That quieted my conscience until I began to wonder
why one man should make another pay him for exercising one of the
virtues. Then came the question: what did my father abstain from? The
workmen abstained from meat, drink, fresh air, good clothes, decent
lodging, holidays, money, the society of their families, and pretty
nearly everything that makes life worth living, which was perhaps the
reason why they usually died twenty years or so sooner than people in
our circumstances. Yet no one rewarded them for their abstinence. The
reward came to my father, who abstained from none of these things, but
indulged in them all to his heart's content. Besides, if the money was
the reward of abstinence, it seemed logical to infer that he must
abstain ten times as much when he had fifty thousand a year as when he
had only five thousand. Here was a problem for my young mind. Required,
something from which my father abstained and in which his workmen
exceeded, and which he abstained from more and more as he grew richer
and richer. The only thing that answered this description was hard work,
and as I never met a sane man willing to pay another for idling, I began
to see that these prodigious payments to my father were extorted by
force. To do him justice, he never boasted of abstinence. He considered
himself a hard-worked man, and claimed his fortune as the reward of his
risks, his calculations, his anxieties, and the journeys he had to make
at all seasons and at all hours. This comforted me somewhat until it
occurred to me that if he had lived a century earlier, invested his
money in a horse and a pair of pistols, and taken to the road, his
object—that of wresting from others the fruits of their labor without
rendering them an equivalent—would have been exactly the same, and his
risk far greater, for it would have included risk of the gallows.
Constant travelling with the constable at his heels, and calculations of
the chances of robbing the Dover mail, would have given him his fill of
activity and anxiety. On the whole, if Jesse Trefusis, M.P., who died a
millionaire in his palace at Kensington, had been a highwayman, I could
not more heartily loathe the social arrangements that rendered such a
career as his not only possible, but eminently creditable to himself in
the eyes of his fellows. Most men make it their business to imitate him,
hoping to become rich and idle on the same terms. Therefore I turn my
back on them. I cannot sit at their feasts knowing how much they cost in
human misery, and seeing how little they produce of human happiness.
What is your opinion, my treasure?"
Henrietta seemed a little
troubled. She smiled faintly, and said caressingly, "It was not your
fault, Sidney. I don't blame you."
"Immortal powers!" he
exclaimed, sitting bolt upright and appealing to the skies, "here is a
woman who believes that the only concern all this causes me is whether
she thinks any the worse of me personally on account of it!"
"No, no, Sidney. It is not I
alone. Nobody thinks the worse of you for it."
"Quite so," he returned, in a
polite frenzy. "Nobody sees any harm in it. That is precisely the
mischief of it."
"Besides," she urged, "your
mother belonged to one of the oldest families in England."
"And what more can man desire
than wealth with descent from a county family! Could a man be happier
than I ought to be, sprung as I am from monopolists of all the sources
and instruments of production—of land on the one side, and of machinery
on the other? This very ground on which we are resting was the property
of my mother's father. At least the law allowed him to use it as such.
When he was a boy, there was a fairly prosperous race of peasants
settled here, tilling the soil, paying him rent for permission to do so,
and making enough out of it to satisfy his large wants and their own
narrow needs without working themselves to death. But my grandfather was
a shrewd man. He perceived that cows and sheep produced more money by
their meat and wool than peasants by their husbandry. So he cleared the
estate. That is, he drove the peasants from their homes, as my father
did afterwards in his Scotch deer forest. Or, as his tombstone has it,
he developed the resources of his country. I don't know what became of
the peasants; HE didn't know, and, I presume, didn't care. I suppose the
old ones went into the workhouse, and the young ones crowded the towns,
and worked for men like my father in factories. Their places were taken
by cattle, which paid for their food so well that my grandfather,
getting my father to take shares in the enterprise, hired laborers on
the Manchester terms to cut that canal for him. When it was made, he
took toll upon it; and his heirs still take toll, and the sons of the
navvies who dug it and of the engineer who designed it pay the toll when
they have occasion to travel by it, or to purchase goods which have been
conveyed along it. I remember my grandfather well. He was a well-bred
man, and a perfect gentleman in his manners; but, on the whole, I think
he was wickeder than my father, who, after all, was caught in the wheels
of a vicious system, and had either to spoil others or be spoiled by
them. But my grandfather—the old rascal!—was in no such dilemma. Master
as he was of his bit of merry England, no man could have enslaved him,
and he might at least have lived and let live. My father followed his
example in the matter of the deer forest, but that was the climax of his
wickedness, whereas it was only the beginning of my grandfather's.
Howbeit, whichever bears the palm, there they were, the types after
which we all strive."
"Not all, Sidney. Not we two. I
hate tradespeople and country squires. We belong to the artistic and
cultured classes, and we can keep aloof from shopkeepers."
"Living, meanwhile, at the rate
of several thousand a year on rent and interest. No, my dear, this is
the way of those people who insist that when they are in heaven they
shall be spared the recollection of such a place as hell, but are quite
content that it shall exist outside their consciousness. I respect my
father more—I mean I despise him less—for doing his own sweating and
filching than I do the sensitive sluggards and cowards who lent him
their money to sweat and filch with, and asked no questions provided the
interest was paid punctually. And as to your friends the artists, they
are the worst of all."
"Oh, Sidney, you are determined
not to be pleased. Artists don't keep factories."
"No; but the factory is only a
part of the machinery of the system. Its basis is the tyranny of brain
force, which, among civilized men, is allowed to do what muscular force
does among schoolboys and savages. The schoolboy proposition is: 'I am
stronger than you, therefore you shall fag for me.' Its grown up form
is: 'I am cleverer than you, therefore you shall fag for me.' The state
of things we produce by submitting to this, bad enough even at first,
becomes intolerable when the mediocre or foolish descendants of the
clever fellows claim to have inherited their privileges. Now, no men are
greater sticklers for the arbitrary dominion of genius and talent than
your artists. The great painter is not satisfied with being sought after
and admired because his hands can do more than ordinary hands, which
they truly can, but he wants to be fed as if his stomach needed more
food than ordinary stomachs, which it does not. A day's work is a day's
work, neither more nor less, and the man who does it needs a day's
sustenance, a night's repose, and due leisure, whether he be painter or
ploughman. But the rascal of a painter, poet, novelist, or other
voluptuary in labor, is not content with his advantage in popular esteem
over the ploughman; he also wants an advantage in money, as if there
were more hours in a day spent in the studio or library than in the
field; or as if he needed more food to enable him to do his work than
the ploughman to enable him to do his. He talks of the higher quality of
his work, as if the higher quality of it were of his own making—as if it
gave him a right to work less for his neighbor than his neighbor works
for him—as if the ploughman could not do better without him than he
without the ploughman—as if the value of the most celebrated pictures
has not been questioned more than that of any straight furrow in the
arable world—as if it did not take an apprenticeship of as many years to
train the hand and eye of a mason or blacksmith as of an artist—as if,
in short, the fellow were a god, as canting brain worshippers have for
years past been assuring him he is. Artists are the high priests of the
modern Moloch. Nine out of ten of them are diseased creatures, just sane
enough to trade on their own neuroses. The only quality of theirs which
extorts my respect is a certain sublime selfishness which makes them
willing to starve and to let their families starve sooner than do any
work they don't like."
"INDEED you are quite wrong,
Sidney. There was a girl at the Slade school who supported her mother
and two sisters by her drawing. Besides, what can you do? People were
made so."
"Yes; I was made a landlord and
capitalist by the folly of the people; but they can unmake me if they
will. Meanwhile I have absolutely no means of escape from my position
except by giving away my slaves to fellows who will use them no better
than I, and becoming a slave myself; which, if you please, you shall not
catch me doing in a hurry. No, my beloved, I must keep my foot on their
necks for your sake as well as for my own. But you do not care about all
this prosy stuff. I am consumed with remorse for having bored my
darling. You want to know why I am living here like a hermit in a vulgar
two-roomed hovel instead of tasting the delights of London society with
my beautiful and devoted young wife."
"But you don't intend to stay
here, Sidney?"
"Yes, I do; and I will tell you
why. I am helping to liberate those Manchester laborers who were my
father's slaves. To bring that about, their fellow slaves all over the
world must unite in a vast international association of men pledged to
share the world's work justly; to share the produce of the work justly;
to yield not a farthing—charity apart—to any full-grown and able-bodied
idler or malingerer, and to treat as vermin in the commonwealth persons
attempting to get more than their share of wealth or give less than
their share of work. This is a very difficult thing to accomplish,
because working-men, like the people called their betters, do not always
understand their own interests, and will often actually help their
oppressors to exterminate their saviours to the tune of 'Rule
Britannia,' or some such lying doggerel. We must educate them out of
that, and, meanwhile, push forward the international association of
laborers diligently. I am at present occupied in propagating its
principles. Capitalism, organized for repressive purposes under pretext
of governing the nation, would very soon stop the association if it
understood our aim, but it thinks that we are engaged in gunpowder plots
and conspiracies to assassinate crowned heads; and so, whilst the police
are blundering in search of evidence of these, our real work goes on
unmolested. Whether I am really advancing the cause is more than I can
say. I use heaps of postage stamps, pay the expenses of many indifferent
lecturers, defray the cost of printing reams of pamphlets and hand-bills
which hail the laborer flatteringly as the salt of the earth, write and
edit a little socialist journal, and do what lies in my power generally.
I had rather spend my ill-gotten wealth in this way than upon an
expensive house and a retinue of servants. And I prefer my corduroys and
my two-roomed chalet here to our pretty little house, and your pretty
little ways, and my pretty little neglect of the work that my heart is
set upon. Some day, perhaps, I will take a holiday; and then we shall
have a new honeymoon."
For a moment Henrietta seemed
about to cry. Suddenly she exclaimed with enthusiasm: "I will stay with
you, Sidney. I will share your work, whatever it may be. I will dress as
a dairymaid, and have a little pail to carry milk in. The world is
nothing to me except when you are with me; and I should love to live
here and sketch from nature."
He blenched, and partially
rose, unable to conceal his dismay. She, resolved not to be cast off,
seized him and clung to him. This was the movement that excited the
derision of Wickens's boy in the adjacent gravel pit. Trefusis was glad
of the interruption; and, when he gave the boy twopence and bade him
begone, half hoped that he would insist on remaining. But though an
obdurate boy on most occasions, he proved complaisant on this, and
withdrew to the high road, where he made over one of his pennies to a
phantom gambler, and tossed with him until recalled from his dual state
by the appearance of Fairholme's party.
In the meantime, Henrietta
urgently returned to her proposition.
"We should be so happy," she
said. "I would housekeep for you, and you could work as much as you
pleased. Our life would be a long idyll."
"My love," he said, shaking his
head as she looked beseechingly at him, "I have too much Manchester
cotton in my constitution for long idylls. And the truth is, that the
first condition of work with me is your absence. When you are with me, I
can do nothing but make love to you. You bewitch me. When I escape from
you for a moment, it is only to groan remorsefully over the hours you
have tempted me to waste and the energy you have futilized."
"If you won't live with me you
had no right to marry me."
"True. But that is neither your
fault nor mine. We have found that we love each other too much—that our
intercourse hinders our usefulness—and so we must part. Not for ever, my
dear; only until you have cares and business of your own to fill up your
life and prevent you from wasting mine."
"I believe you are mad," she
said petulantly. "The world is mad nowadays, and is galloping to the
deuce as fast as greed can goad it. I merely stand out of the rush, not
liking its destination. Here comes a barge, the commander of which is
devoted to me because he believes that I am organizing a revolution for
the abolition of lock dues and tolls. We will go aboard and float down
to Lyvern, whence you can return to London. You had better telegraph
from the junction to the college; there must be a hue and cry out after
us by this time. You shall have my address, and we can write to one
another or see one another whenever we please. Or you can divorce me for
deserting you."
"You would like me to, I know,"
said Henrietta, sobbing.
"I should die of despair, my
darling," he said complacently. "Ship aho-o-o-y! Stop crying, Hetty, for
God's sake. You lacerate my very soul."
"Ah-o-o-o-o-o-o-oy, master!"
roared the bargee.
"Good arternoon, sir," said a
man who, with a short whip in his hand, trudged beside the white horse
that towed the barge. "Come up!" he added malevolently to the horse.
"I want to get on board, and go
up to Lyvern with you," said Trefusis. "He seems a well fed brute,
that."
"Better fed nor me," said the
man. "You can't get the work out of a hunderfed 'orse that you can out
of a hunderfed man or woman. I've bin in parts of England where women
pulled the barges. They come cheaper nor 'orses, because it didn't cost
nothing to get new ones when the old ones we wore out."
"Then why not employ them?"
said Trefusis, with ironical gravity. "The principle of buying
laborforce in the cheapest market and selling its product in the dearest
has done much to make Englishmen—what they are."
"The railway comp'nies keeps 'orspittles
for the like of 'IM," said the man, with a cunning laugh, indicating the
horse by smacking him on the belly with the butt of the whip. "If ever
you try bein' a laborer in earnest, governor, try it on four legs.
You'll find it far preferable to trying on two."
"This man is one of my
converts," said Trefusis apart to Henrietta. "He told me the other day
that since I set him thinking he never sees a gentleman without feeling
inclined to heave a brick at him. I find that socialism is often
misunderstood by its least intelligent supporters and opponents to mean
simply unrestrained indulgence of our natural propensity to heave bricks
at respectable persons. Now I am going to carry you along this plank. If
you keep quiet, we may reach the barge. If not, we shall reach the
bottom of the canal."
He carried her safely over, and
exchanged some friendly words with the bargee. Then he took Henrietta
forward, and stood watching the water as they were borne along
noiselessly between the hilly pastures of the country.
"This would be a fairy
journey," he said, "if one could forget the woman down below, cooking
her husband's dinner in a stifling hole about as big as your wardrobe,
and—"
"Oh, don't talk any more of
these things," she said crossly; "I cannot help them. I have my own
troubles to think of. HER husband lives with her."
"She will change places with
you, my dear, if you make her the offer."
She had no answer ready. After
a pause he began to speak poetically of the scenery and to offer her
loverlike speeches and compliments. But she felt that he intended to get
rid of her, and he knew that it was useless to try to hide that design
from her. She turned away and sat down on a pile of bricks, only
writhing angrily when he pressed her for a word. As they neared the end
of her voyage, and her intense protest against desertion remained, as
she thought, only half expressed, her sense of injury grew almost
unbearable.
They landed on a wharf, and
went through an unswept, deeply-rutted lane up to the main street of
Lyvern. Here he became Smilash again, walking deferentially a little
before her, as if she had hired him to point out the way. She then saw
that her last opportunity of appealing to him had gone by, and she
nearly burst into tears at the thought. It occurred to her that she
might prevail upon him by making a scene in public. But the street was a
busy one, and she was a little afraid of him. Neither consideration
would have checked her in one of her ungovernable moods, but now she was
in an abject one. Her moods seemed to come only when they were harmful
to her. She suffered herself to be put into the railway omnibus, which
was on the point of starting from the innyard when they arrived there,
and though he touched his hat, asked whether she had any message to give
him, and in a tender whisper wished her a safe journey, she would not
look at or speak to him. So they parted, and he returned alone to the
chalet, where he was received by the two policemen who subsequently
brought him to the college.
CHAPTER
6
The year wore on, and the long
winter evenings set in. The studious young ladies at Alton College,
elbows on desk and hands over ears, shuddered chillily in fur tippets
whilst they loaded their memories with the statements of writers on
moral science, or, like men who swim upon corks, reasoned out
mathematical problems upon postulates. Whence it sometimes happened that
the more reasonable a student was in mathematics, the more unreasonable
she was in the affairs of real life, concerning which few trustworthy
postulates have yet been ascertained.
Agatha, not studious, and apt
to shiver in winter, began to break Rule No. 17 with increasing
frequency. Rule No. 17 forbade the students to enter the kitchen, or in
any way to disturb the servants in the discharge of their duties. Agatha
broke it because she was fond of making toffee, of eating it, of a good
fire, of doing any forbidden thing, and of the admiration with which the
servants listened to her ventriloquial and musical feats. Gertrude
accompanied her because she too liked toffee, and because she plumed
herself on her condescension to her inferiors. Jane went because her two
friends went, and the spirit of adventure, the force of example, and the
love of toffee often brought more volunteers to these expeditions than
Agatha thought it safe to enlist. One evening Miss Wilson, going
downstairs alone to her private wine cellar, was arrested near the
kitchen by sounds of revelry, and, stopping to listen, overheard the
castanet dance (which reminded her of the emphasis with which Agatha had
snapped her fingers at Mrs. Miller), the bee on the window pane, "Robin
Adair" (encored by the servants), and an imitation of herself in the act
of appealing to Jane Carpenter's better nature to induce her to study
for the Cambridge Local. She waited until the cold and her fear of being
discovered spying forced her to creep upstairs, ashamed of having
enjoyed a silly entertainment, and of conniving at a breach of the rules
rather than face a fresh quarrel with Agatha.
There was one particular in
which matters between Agatha and the college discipline did not go on
exactly as before. Although she had formerly supplied a
disproportionately large number of the confessions in the fault book,
the entry which had nearly led to her expulsion was the last she ever
made in it. Not that her conduct was better—it was rather the reverse.
Miss Wilson never mentioned the matter, the fault book being sacred from
all allusion on her part. But she saw that though Agatha would not
confess her own sins, she still assisted others to unburden their
consciences. The witticisms with which Jane unsuspectingly enlivened the
pages of the Recording Angel were conclusive on this point.
Smilash had now adopted a
profession. In the last days of autumn he had whitewashed the chalet,
painted the doors, windows, and veranda, repaired the roof and interior,
and improved the place so much that the landlord had warned him that the
rent would be raised at the expiration of his twelvemonth's tenancy,
remarking that a tenant could not reasonably expect to have a pretty,
rain-tight dwelling-house for the same money as a hardly habitable ruin.
Smilash had immediately promised to dilapidate it to its former state at
the end of the year. He had put up a board at the gate with an
inscription copied from some printed cards which he presented to persons
who happened to converse with him.
JEFFERSON SMILASH
PAINTER, DECORATOR,
GLAZIER, PLUMBER & GARDENER. Pianofortes tuned. Domestic engineering
in all its Branches. Families waited upon at table or otherwise.
CHAMOUNIX VILLA, LYVERN.
(N.B. Advice Gratis. No Reasonable offer refused.)
The business thus announced,
comprehensive as it was, did not flourish. When asked by the curious for
testimony to his competence and respectability, he recklessly referred
them to Fairholme, to Josephs, and in particular to Miss Wilson, who, he
said, had known him from his earliest childhood. Fairholme, glad of an
opportunity to show that he was no mealy mouthed parson, declared, when
applied to, that Smilash was the greatest rogue in the country. Josephs,
partly from benevolence, and partly from a vague fear that Smilash might
at any moment take an action against him for defamation of character,
said he had no doubt that he was a very cheap workman, and that it would
be a charity to give him some little job to encourage him. Miss Wilson
confirmed Fairholme's account; and the church organist, who had tuned
all the pianofortes in the neighborhood once a year for nearly a quarter
of a century, denounced the newcomer as Jack of all trades and master of
none. Hereupon the radicals of Lyvern, a small and disreputable party,
began to assert that there was no harm in the man, and that the parsons
and Miss Wilson, who lived in a fine house and did nothing but take in
the daughters of rich swells as boarders, might employ their leisure
better than in taking the bread out of a poor work man's mouth. But as
none of this faction needed the services of a domestic engineer, he was
none the richer for their support, and the only patron he obtained was a
housemaid who was leaving her situation at a country house in the
vicinity, and wanted her box repaired, the lid having fallen off.
Smilash demanded half-a-crown for the job, but on her demurring,
immediately apologized and came down to a shilling. For this sum he
repainted the box, traced her initials on it, and affixed new hinges, a
Bramah lock, and brass handles, at a cost to himself of ten shillings
and several hours' labor. The housemaid found fault with the color of
the paint, made him take off the handles, which, she said, reminded her
of a coffin, complained that a lock with such a small key couldn't be
strong enough for a large box, but admitted that it was all her own
fault for not employing a proper man. It got about that he had made a
poor job of the box; and as he, when taxed with this, emphatically
confirmed it, he got no other commission; and his signboard served
thenceforth only for the amusement of pedestrian tourists and of
shepherd boys with a taste for stone throwing.
One night a great storm blew
over Lyvern, and those young ladies at Alton College who were afraid of
lightning, said their prayers with some earnestness. At half-past twelve
the rain, wind, and thunder made such a din that Agatha and Gertrude
wrapped themselves in shawls, stole downstairs to the window on the
landing outside Miss Wilson's study, and stood watching the flashes give
vivid glimpses of the landscape, and discussing in whispers whether it
was dangerous to stand near a window, and whether brass stair-rods could
attract lightning. Agatha, as serious and friendly with a single
companion as she was mischievous and satirical before a larger audience,
enjoyed the scene quietly. The lightning did not terrify her, for she
knew little of the value of life, and fancied much concerning the
heroism of being indifferent to it. The tremors which the more startling
flashes caused her, only made her more conscious of her own courage and
its contrast with the uneasiness of Gertrude, who at last, shrinking
from a forked zigzag of blue flame, said:
"Let us go back to bed, Agatha.
I feel sure that we are not safe here."
"Quite as safe as in bed, where
we cannot see anything. How the house shakes! I believe the rain will
batter in the windows before—"
"Hush," whispered Gertrude,
catching her arm in terror. "What was that?"
"What?"
"I am sure I heard the bell—the
gate bell. Oh, do let us go back to bed."
"Nonsense! Who would be out on
such a night as this? Perhaps the wind rang it."
They waited for a few moments;
Gertrude trembling, and Agatha feeling, as she listened in the darkness,
a sensation familiar to persons who are afraid of ghosts. Presently a
veiled clangor mingled with the wind. A few sharp and urgent snatches of
it came unmistakably from the bell at the gate of the college grounds.
It was a loud bell, used to summon a servant from the college to open
the gates; for though there was a porter's lodge, it was uninhabited.
"Who on earth can it be?" said
Agatha. "Can't they find the wicket, the idiots?"
"Oh, I hope not! Do come
upstairs, Agatha."
"No, I won't. Go you, if you
like." But Gertrude was afraid to go alone. "I think I had better waken
Miss Wilson, and tell her," continued Agatha. "It seems awful to shut
anybody out on such a night as this."
"But we don't know who it is."
"Well, I suppose you are not
afraid of them, in any case," said Agatha, knowing the contrary, but
recognizing the convenience of shaming Gertrude into silence.
They listened again. The storm
was now very boisterous, and they could not hear the bell. Suddenly
there was a loud knocking at the house door. Gertrude screamed, and her
cry was echoed from the rooms above, where several girls had heard the
knocking also, and had been driven by it into the state of mind which
accompanies the climax of a nightmare. Then a candle flickered on the
stairs, and Miss Wilson's voice, reassuringly firm, was heard.
"Who is that?"
"It is I, Miss Wilson, and
Gertrude. We have been watching the storm, and there is some one
knocking at the—" A tremendous battery with the knocker, followed by a
sound, confused by the gale, as of a man shouting, interrupted her.
"They had better not open the
door," said Miss Wilson, in some alarm. "You are very imprudent, Agatha,
to stand here. You will catch your death of—Dear me! What can be the
matter? She hurried down, followed by Agatha, Gertrude, and some of the
braver students, to the hall, where they found a few shivering servants
watching the housekeeper, who was at the keyhole of the house door,
querulously asking who was there. She was evidently not heard by those
without, for the knocking recommenced whilst she was speaking, and she
recoiled as if she had received a blow on the mouth. Miss Wilson then
rattled the chain to attract attention, and demanded again who was
there.
"Let us in," was returned in a
hollow shout through the keyhole. "There is a dying woman and three
children here. Open the door."
Miss Wilson lost her presence
of mind. To gain time, she replied, "I—I can't hear you. What do you
say?"
"Damnation!" said the voice,
speaking this time to some one outside. "They can't hear." And the
knocking recommenced with increased urgency. Agatha, excited, caught
Miss Wilson's dressing gown, and repeated to her what the voice had
said. Miss Wilson had heard distinctly enough, and she felt, without
knowing clearly why, that the door must be opened, but she was almost
over-mastered by a vague dread of what was to follow. She began to undo
the chain, and Agatha helped with the bolts. Two of the servants
exclaimed that they were all about to be murdered in their beds, and ran
away. A few of the students seemed inclined to follow their example. At
last the door, loosed, was blown wide open, flinging Miss Wilson and
Agatha back, and admitting a whirlwind that tore round the hall,
snatched at the women's draperies, and blew out the lights. Agatha, by a
hash of lightning, saw for an instant two men straining at the door like
sailors at a capstan. Then she knew by the cessation of the whirlwind
that they had shut it. Matches were struck, the candles relighted, and
the newcomers clearly perceived.
Smilash, bareheaded, without a
coat, his corduroy vest and trousers heavy with rain; a rough-looking,
middle-aged man, poorly dressed like a shepherd, wet as Smilash, with
the expression, piteous, patient, and desperate, of one hard driven by
ill-fortune, and at the end of his resources; two little children, a boy
and a girl, almost naked, cowering under an old sack that had served
them as an umbrella; and, lying on the settee where the two men had laid
it, a heap of wretched wearing apparel, sacking, and rotten matting,
with Smilash's coat and sou'wester, the whole covering a bundle which
presently proved to be an exhausted woman with a tiny infant at her
breast. Smilash's expression, as he looked at her, was ferocious.
"Sorry fur to trouble you,
lady," said the man, after glancing anxiously at Smilash, as if he had
expected him to act as spokesman; "but my roof and the side of my house
has gone in the storm, and my missus has been having another little one,
and I am sorry to ill-convenience you, Miss; but—but—"
"Inconvenience!" exclaimed
Smilash. "It is the lady's privilege to relieve you—her highest
privilege!"
The little boy here began to
cry from mere misery, and the woman roused herself to say, "For shame,
Tom! before the lady," and then collapsed, too weak to care for what
might happen next in the world. Smilash looked impatiently at Miss
Wilson, who hesitated, and said to him:
"What do you expect me to do?"
"To help us," he replied. Then,
with an explosion of nervous energy, he added: "Do what your heart tells
you to do. Give your bed and your clothes to the woman, and let your
girls pitch their books to the devil for a few days and make something
for these poor little creatures to wear. The poor have worked hard
enough to clothe THEM. Let them take their turn now and clothe the
poor."
"No, no. Steady, master," said
the man, stepping forward to propitiate Miss Wilson, and evidently much
oppressed by a sense of unwelcomeness. "It ain't any fault of the
lady's. Might I make so bold as to ask you to put this woman of mine
anywhere that may be convenient until morning. Any sort of a place will
do; she's accustomed to rough it. Just to have a roof over her until I
find a room in the village where we can shake down." Here, led by his
own words to contemplate the future, he looked desolately round the
cornice of the hall, as if it were a shelf on which somebody might have
left a suitable lodging for him.
Miss Wilson turned her back
decisively and contemptuously on Smilash. She had recovered herself. "I
will keep your wife here," she said to the man. "Every care shall be
taken of her. The children can stay too."
"Three cheers for moral
science!" cried Smilash, ecstatically breaking into the outrageous
dialect he had forgotten in his wrath. "Wot was my words to you,
neighbor, when I said we should bring your missus to the college, and
you said, ironical-like, 'Aye, and bloomin' glad they'll be to see us
there.' Did I not say to you that the lady had a noble 'art, and would
show it when put to the test by sech a calamity as this?"
"Why should you bring my hasty
words up again' me now, master, when the lady has been so kind?" said
the man with emotion. "I am humbly grateful to you, Miss; and so is
Bess. We are sensible of the ill-convenience we—"
Miss Wilson, who had been
conferring with the housekeeper, cut his speech short by ordering him to
carry his wife to bed, which he did with the assistance of Smilash, now
jubilant. Whilst they were away, one of the servants, bidden to bring
some blankets to the woman's room, refused, saying that she was not
going to wait on that sort of people. Miss Wilson gave her warning
almost fiercely to quit the college next day. This excepted, no ill-will
was shown to the refugees. The young ladies were then requested to
return to bed.
Meanwhile the man, having laid
his wife in a chamber palatial in comparison with that which the storm
had blown about her ears, was congratulating her on her luck, and
threatening the children with the most violent chastisement if they
failed to behave themselves with strict propriety whilst they remained
in that house. Before leaving them he kissed his wife; and she,
reviving, asked him to look at the baby. He did so, and pensively
apostrophized it with a shocking epithet in anticipation of the time
when its appetite must be satisfied from the provision shop instead of
from its mother's breast. She laughed and cried shame on him; and so
they parted cheerfully. When he returned to the hall with Smilash they
found two mugs of beer waiting for them. The girls had retired, and only
Miss Wilson and the housekeeper remained.
"Here's your health, mum," said
the man, before drinking; "and may you find such another as yourself to
help you when you're in trouble, which Lord send may never come!"
"Is your house quite
destroyed?" said Miss Wilson. "Where will you spend the night?"
"Don't you think of me, mum.
Master Smilash here will kindly put me up 'til morning."
"His health!" said Smilash,
touching the mug with his lips.
"The roof and south wall is
browed right away," continued the man, after pausing for a moment to
puzzle over Smilash's meaning. "I doubt if there's a stone of it
standing by this."
"But Sir John will build it for
you again. You are one of his herds, are you not?"
"I am, Miss. But not he; he'll
be glad it's down. He don't like people livin' on the land. I have told
him time and again that the place was ready to fall; but he said I
couldn't expect him to lay out money on a house that he got no rent for.
You see, Miss, I didn't pay any rent. I took low wages; and the bit of a
hut was a sort of set-off again' what I was paid short of the other men.
I couldn't afford to have it repaired, though I did what I could to
patch and prop it. And now most like I shall be blamed for letting it be
blew down, and shall have to live in half a room in the town and pay two
or three shillin's a week, besides walkin' three miles to and from my
work every day. A gentleman like Sir John don't hardly know what the
value of a penny is to us laborin' folk, nor how cruel hard his estate
rules and the like comes on us."
"Sir John's health!" said
Smilash, touching the mug as before. The man drank a mouthful humbly,
and Smilash continued, "Here's to the glorious landed gentry of old
England: bless 'em!"
"Master Smilash is only
jokin'," said the man apologetically. "It's his way."
"You should not bring a family
into the world if you are so poor," said Miss Wilson severely. "Can you
not see that you impoverish yourself by doing so—to put the matter on no
higher grounds."
"Reverend Mr. Malthus's
health!" remarked Smilash, repeating his pantomime.
"Some say it's the children,
and some say it's the drink, Miss," said the man submissively. "But from
what I see, family or no family, drunk or sober, the poor gets poorer
and the rich richer every day."
"Ain't it disgustin' to hear a
man so ignorant of the improvement in the condition of his class?" said
Smilash, appealing to Miss Wilson.
"If you intend to take this man
home with you," she said, turning sharply on him, "you had better do it
at once."
"I take it kind on your part
that you ask me to do anythink, after your up and telling Mr. Wickens
that I am the last person in Lyvern you would trust with a job."
"So you are—the very last. Why
don't you drink your beer?"
"Not in scorn of your brewing,
lady; but because, bein' a common man, water is good enough for me."
"I wish you good-night, Miss,"
said the man; "and thank you kindly for Bess and the children."
"Good-night," she replied,
stepping aside to avoid any salutation from Smilash. But he went up to
her and said in a low voice, and with the Trefusis manner and accent:
"Good-night, Miss Wilson. If
you should ever be in want of the services of a dog, a man, or a
domestic engineer, remind Smilash of Bess and the children, and he will
act for you in any of those capacities."
They opened the door
cautiously, and found that the wind, conquered by the rain, had abated.
Miss Wilson's candle, though it flickered in the draught, was not
extinguished this time; and she was presently left with the housekeeper,
bolting and chaining the door, and listening to the crunching of feet on
the gravel outside dying away through the steady pattering of the rain.
CHAPTER
7
Agatha was at this time in her
seventeenth year. She had a lively perception of the foibles of others,
and no reverence for her seniors, whom she thought dull, cautious, and
ridiculously amenable by commonplaces. But she was subject to the
illusion which disables youth in spite of its superiority to age. She
thought herself an exception. Crediting Mr. Jansenius and the general
mob of mankind with nothing but a grovelling consciousness of some few
material facts, she felt in herself an exquisite sense and all-embracing
conception of nature, shared only by her favorite poets and heroes of
romance and history. Hence she was in the common youthful case of being
a much better judge of other people's affairs than of her own. At the
fellow-student who adored some Henry or Augustus, not from the
drivelling sentimentality which the world calls love, but because this
particular Henry or Augustus was a phoenix to whom the laws that govern
the relations of ordinary lads and lasses did not apply, Agatha laughed
in her sleeve. The more she saw of this weakness in her fellows, the
more satisfied she was that, being forewarned, she was also forearmed
against an attack of it on herself, much as if a doctor were to conclude
that he could not catch smallpox because he had seen many cases of it;
or as if a master mariner, knowing that many ships are wrecked in the
British channel, should venture there without a pilot, thinking that he
knew its perils too well to run any risk of them. Yet, as the doctor
might hold such an opinion if he believed himself to be constituted
differently from ordinary men; or the shipmaster adopt such a course
under the impression that his vessel was a star, Agatha found false
security in the subjective difference between her fellows seen from
without and herself known from within. When, for instance, she fell in
love with Mr. Jefferson Smilash (a step upon which she resolved the day
after the storm), her imagination invested the pleasing emotion with a
sacredness which, to her, set it far apart and distinct from the
frivolous fancies of which Henry and Augustus had been the subject, and
she the confidant.
"I can look at him quite coolly
and dispassionately," she said to herself. "Though his face has a
strange influence that must, I know, correspond to some unexplained
power within me, yet it is not a perfect face. I have seen many men who
are, strictly speaking, far handsomer. If the light that never was on
sea or land is in his eyes, yet they are not pretty eyes—not half so
clear as mine. Though he wears his common clothes with a nameless grace
that betrays his true breeding at every step, yet he is not tall, dark,
and melancholy, as my ideal hero would be if I were as great a fool as
girls of my age usually are. If I am in love, I have sense enough not to
let my love blind my judgment."
She did not tell anyone of her
new interest in life. Strongest in that student community, she had used
her power with good-nature enough to win the popularity of a school
leader, and occasionally with unscrupulousness enough to secure the
privileges of a school bully. Popularity and privilege, however, only
satisfied her when she was in the mood for them. Girls, like men, want
to be petted, pitied, and made much of, when they are diffident, in low
spirits, or in unrequited love. These are services which the weak cannot
render to the strong and which the strong will not render to the weak,
except when there is also a difference of sex. Agatha knew by experience
that though a weak woman cannot understand why her stronger sister
should wish to lean upon her, she may triumph in the fact without
understanding it, and give chaff instead of consolation. Agatha wanted
to be understood and not to be chaffed. Finding herself unable to
satisfy both these conditions, she resolved to do without sympathy and
to hold her tongue. She had often had to do so before, and she was
helped on this occasion by a sense of the ridiculous appearance her
passion might wear in the vulgar eye. Her secret kept itself, as she was
supposed in the college to be insensible to the softer emotions. Love
wrought no external change upon her. It made her believe that she had
left her girlhood behind her and was now a woman with a newly-developed
heart capacity at which she would childishly have scoffed a little while
before. She felt ashamed of the bee on the window pane, although it
somehow buzzed as frequently as before in spite of her. Her calendar,
formerly a monotonous cycle of class times, meal times, play times, and
bed time, was now irregularly divided by walks past the chalet and
accidental glimpses of its tenant.
Early in December came a black
frost, and navigation on the canal was suspended. Wickens's boy was sent
to the college with news that Wickens's pond would bear, and that the
young ladies should be welcome at any time. The pond was only four feet
deep, and as Miss Wilson set much store by the physical education of her
pupils, leave was given for skating. Agatha, who was expert on the ice,
immediately proposed that a select party should go out before breakfast
next morning. Actions not in themselves virtuous often appear so when
performed at hours that compel early rising, and some of the candidates
for the Cambridge Local, who would not have sacrificed the afternoon to
amusement, at once fell in with her suggestion. But for them it might
never have been carried out; for when they summoned Agatha, at half-past
six next morning, to leave her warm bed and brave the biting air, she
would have refused without hesitation had she not been shamed into
compliance by these laborious ones who stood by her bedside, blue-nosed
and hungry, but ready for the ice. When she had dressed herself with
much shuddering and chattering, they allayed their internal discomfort
by a slender meal of biscuits, got their skates, and went out across the
rimy meadows, past patient cows breathing clouds of steam, to Wickens's
pond. Here, to their surprise, was Smilash, on electro-plated acme
skates, practicing complicated figures with intense diligence. It soon
appeared that his skill came short of his ambition; for, after several
narrow escapes and some frantic staggering, his calves, elbows, and
occiput smote the ice almost simultaneously. On rising ruefully to a
sitting posture he became aware that eight young ladies were watching
his proceedings with interest.
"This comes of a common man
putting himself above his station by getting into gentlemen's skates,"
he said. "Had I been content with a humble slide, as my fathers was, I
should ha' been a happier man at the present moment." He sighed, rose,
touched his hat to Miss Ward, and took off his skates, adding:
"Good-morning, Miss. Miss Wilson sent me word to be here sharp at six to
put on the young ladies' skates, and I took the liberty of trying a
figure or two to keep out the cold."
"Miss Wilson did not tell me
that she ordered you to come," said Miss Ward.
"Just like her to be thoughtful
and yet not let on to be! She is a kind lady, and a learned—like
yourself, Miss. Sit yourself down on the camp-stool and give me your
heel, if I may be so bold as to stick a gimlet into it."
His assistance was welcome, and
Miss Ward allowed him to put on her skates. She was a Canadian, and
could skate well. Jane, the first to follow her, was anxious as to the
strength of the ice; but when reassured, she acquitted herself
admirably, for she was proficient in outdoor exercises, and had the
satisfaction of laughing in the field at those who laughed at her in the
study. Agatha, contrary to her custom, gave way to her companions, and
her boots were the last upon which Smilash operated.
"How d'you do, Miss Wylie?" he
said, dropping the Smilash manner now that the rest were out of earshot.
"I am very well, thank you,"
said Agatha, shy and constrained. This phase of her being new to him, he
paused with her heel in his hand and looked up at her curiously. She
collected herself, returned his gaze steadily, and said: "How did Miss
Wilson send you word to come? She only knew of our party at half-past
nine last night."
"Miss Wilson did not send for
me."
"But you have just told Miss
Ward that she did."
"Yes. I find it necessary to
tell almost as many lies now that I am a simple laborer as I did when I
was a gentleman. More, in fact."
"I shall know how much to
believe of what you say in the future."
"The truth is this. I am
perhaps the worst skater in the world, and therefore, according to a
natural law, I covet the faintest distinction on the ice more than
immortal fame for the things in which nature has given me aptitude to
excel. I envy that large friend of yours—Jane is her name, I think—more
than I envy Plato. I came down here this morning, thinking that the
skating world was all a-bed, to practice in secret."
"I am glad we caught you at
it," said Agatha maliciously, for he was disappointing her. She wanted
him to be heroic in his conversation; and he would not.
"I suppose so," he replied. "I
have observed that Woman's dearest delight is to wound Man's
self-conceit, though Man's dearest delight is to gratify hers. There is
at least one creature lower than Man. Now, off with you. Shall I hold
you until your ankles get firm?"
"Thank you," she said,
disgusted: "I can skate pretty well, and I don't think you could
give me any useful assistance." And she went off cautiously, feeling
that a mishap would be very disgraceful after such a speech.
He stood on the shore,
listening to the grinding, swaying sound of the skates, and watching the
growing complexity of the curves they were engraving on the ice. As the
girls grew warm and accustomed to the exercise they laughed, jested,
screamed recklessly when they came into collision, and sailed before the
wind down the whole length of the pond at perilous speed. The more
animated they became, the gloomier looked Smilash. "Not two-penn'orth of
choice between them and a parcel of puppies," he said; "except that some
of them are conscious that there is a man looking at them, although he
is only a blackguard laborer. They remind me of Henrietta in a hundred
ways. Would I laugh, now, if the whole sheet of ice were to burst into
little bits under them?"
Just then the ice cracked with
a startling report, and the skaters, except Jane, skimmed away in all
directions.
"You are breaking the ice to
pieces, Jane," said Agatha, calling from a safe distance. "How can you
expect it to bear your weight?"
"Pack of fools!" retorted Jane
indignantly. "The noise only shows how strong it is."
The shock which the report had
given Smilash answered him his question. "Make a note that wishes for
the destruction of the human race, however rational and sincere, are
contrary to nature," he said, recovering his spirits. "Besides, what a
precious fool I should be if I were working at an international
association of creatures only fit for destruction! Hi, lady! One word,
Miss!" This was to Miss Ward, who had skated into his neighborhood. "It
bein' a cold morning, and me havin' a poor and common circulation, would
it be looked on as a liberty if I was to cut a slide here or take a turn
in the corner all to myself?"
"You may skate over there if
you wish," she said, after a pause for consideration, pointing to a
deserted spot at the leeward end of the pond, where the ice was too
rough for comfortable skating.
"Nobly spoke!" he cried, with a
grin, hurrying to the place indicated, where, skating being out of the
question, he made a pair of slides, and gravely exercised himself upon
them until his face glowed and his fingers tingled in the frosty air.
The time passed quickly; when Miss Ward sent for him to take off her
skates there was a general groan and declaration that it could not
possibly be half-past eight o'clock yet. Smilash knelt before the
camp-stool, and was presently busy unbuckling and unscrewing. When
Jane's turn came, the camp-stool creaked beneath her weight. Agatha
again remonstrated with her, but immediately reproached herself with
flippancy before Smilash, to whom she wished to convey an impression of
deep seriousness of character.
"Smallest foot of the lot," he
said critically, holding Jane's foot between his finger and thumb as if
it were an art treasure which he had been invited to examine. "And
belonging to the finest built lady."
Jane snatched away her foot,
blushed, and said:
"Indeed! What next, I wonder?"
"T'other 'un next," he said,
setting to work on the remaining skate. When it was off, he looked up at
her, and she darted a glance at him as she rose which showed that his
compliment (her feet were, in fact, small and pretty) was appreciated.
"Allow me, Miss," he said to
Gertrude, who was standing on one leg, leaning on Agatha, and taking off
her own skates.
"No, thank you," she said
coldly. "I don't need your assistance."
"I am well aware that the offer
was overbold," he replied, with a self-complacency that made his
profession of humility exasperating. "If all the skates is off, I will,
by Miss Wilson's order, carry them and the camp-stool back to the
college."
Miss Ward handed him her skates
and turned away. Gertrude placed hers on the stool and went with Miss
Ward. The rest followed, leaving him to stare at the heap of skates and
consider how he should carry them. He could think of no better plan than
to interlace the straps and hang them in a chain over his shoulder. By
the time he had done this the young ladies were out of sight, and his
intention of enjoying their society during the return to the college was
defeated. They had entered the building long before he came in sight of
it.
Somewhat out of conceit with
his folly, he went to the servants' entrance and rang the bell there.
When the door was opened, he saw Miss Ward standing behind the maid who
admitted him.
"Oh," she said, looking at the
string of skates as if she had hardly expected to see them again, "so
you have brought our things back?"
"Such were my instructions," he
said, taken aback by her manner. "You had no instructions. What do you
mean by getting our skates into your charge under false pretences? I was
about to send the police to take them from you. How dare you tell me
that you were sent to wait on me, when you know very well that you were
nothing of the sort?"
"I couldn't help it, Miss," he
replied submissively. "I am a natural born liar—always was. I know that
it must appear dreadful to you that never told a lie, and don't hardly
know what a lie is, belonging as you do to a class where none is ever
told. But common people like me tells lies just as a duck swims. I ask
your pardon, Miss, most humble, and I hope the young ladies'll be able
to tell one set of skates from t'other; for I'm blest if I can."
"Put them down. Miss Wilson
wishes to speak to you before you go. Susan, show him the way."
"Hope you ain't been and got a
poor cove into trouble, Miss?"
"Miss Wilson knows how you have
behaved."
He smiled at her benevolently
and followed Susan upstairs. On their way they met Jane, who stole a
glance at him, and was about to pass by, when he said:
"Won't you say a word to Miss
Wilson for a poor common fellow, honored young lady? I have got into
dreadful trouble for having made bold to assist you this morning."
"You needn't give yourself the
pains to talk like that," replied Jane in an impetuous whisper. "We all
know that you're only pretending."
"Well, you can guess my
motive," he whispered, looking tenderly at her.
"Such stuff and nonsense! I
never heard of such a thing in my life," said Jane, and ran away,
plainly understanding that he had disguised himself in order to obtain
admission to the college and enjoy the happiness of looking at her.
"Cursed fool that I am!" he
said to himself; "I cannot act like a rational creature for five
consecutive minutes."
The servant led him to the
study and announced, "The man, if you please, ma'am."
"Jeff Smilash," he added in
explanation.
"Come in," said Miss Wilson
sternly.
He went in, and met the
determined frown which she cast on him from her seat behind the writing
table, by saying courteously:
"Good-morning, Miss Wilson."
She bent forward involuntarily,
as if to receive a gentleman. Then she checked herself and looked
implacable.
"I have to apologize," he said,
"for making use of your name unwarrantably this morning—telling a lie,
in fact. I happened to be skating when the young ladies came down, and
as they needed some assistance which they would hardly have accepted
from a common man—excuse my borrowing that tiresome expression from our
acquaintance Smilash—I set their minds at ease by saying that you had
sent for me. Otherwise, as you have given me a bad character—though not
worse than I deserve—they would probably have refused to employ me, or
at least I should have been compelled to accept payment, which I, of
course, do not need."
Miss Wilson affected surprise.
"I do not understand you," she said.
"Not altogether," he said
smiling. "But you understand that I am what is called a gentleman."
"No. The gentlemen with whom I
am conversant do not dress as you dress, nor speak as you speak, nor act
as you act."
He looked at her, and her
countenance confirmed the hostility of her tone. He instantly relapsed
into an aggravated phase of Smilash.
"I will no longer attempt to
set myself up as a gentleman," he said. "I am a common man, and your
ladyship's hi recognizes me as such and is not to be deceived. But don't
go for to say that I am not candid when I am as candid as ever you will
let me be. What fault, if any, do you find with my putting the skates on
the young ladies, and carryin' the campstool for them?"
"If you are a gentleman," said
Miss Wilson, reddening, "your conduct in persisting in these antics in
my presence is insulting to me. Extremely so."
"Miss Wilson," he replied,
unruffled, "if you insist on Smilash, you shall have Smilash; I take an
insane pleasure in personating him. If you want Sidney—my real Christian
name—you can command him. But allow me to say that you must have either
one or the other. If you become frank with me, I will understand that
you are addressing Sidney. If distant and severe, Smilash."
"No matter what your name may
be," said Miss Wilson, much annoyed, "I forbid you to come here or to
hold any communication whatever with the young ladies in my charge."
"Why?"
"Because I choose."
"There is much force in that
reason, Miss Wilson; but it is not moral force in the sense conveyed by
your college prospectus, which I have read with great interest."
Miss Wilson, since her quarrel
with Agatha, had been sore on the subject of moral force. "No one is
admitted here," she said, "without a trustworthy introduction or
recommendation. A disguise is not a satisfactory substitute for either."
"Disguises are generally
assumed for the purpose of concealing crime," he remarked sententiously.
"Precisely so," she said
emphatically.
"Therefore, I bear, to say the
least, a doubtful character. Nevertheless, I have formed with some of
the students here a slight acquaintance, of which, it seems, you
disapprove. You have given me no good reason why I should discontinue
that acquaintance, and you cannot control me except by your wish—a sort
of influence not usually effective with doubtful characters. Suppose I
disregard your wish, and that one or two of your pupils come to you and
say: 'Miss Wilson, in our opinion Smilash is an excellent fellow; we
find his conversation most improving. As it is your principle to allow
us to exercise our own judgment, we intend to cultivate the acquaintance
of Smilash.' How will you act in that case?"
"Send them home to their
parents at once."
"I see that your principles are
those of the Church of England. You allow the students the right of
private judgment on condition that they arrive at the same conclusions
as you. Excuse my saying that the principles of the Church of England,
however excellent, are not those your prospectus led me to hope for.
Your plan is coercion, stark and simple."
"I do not admit it," said Miss
Wilson, ready to argue, even with Smilash, in defence of her system.
"The girls are quite at liberty to act as they please, but I reserve my
equal liberty to exclude them from my college if I do not approve of
their behavior."
"Just so. In most schools
children are perfectly at liberty to learn their lessons or not, just as
they please; but the principal reserves an equal liberty to whip them if
they cannot repeat their tasks."
"I do not whip my pupils," said
Miss Wilson indignantly. "The comparison is an outrage."
"But you expel them; and, as
they are devoted to you and to the place, expulsion is a dreaded
punishment. Yours is the old system of making laws and enforcing them by
penalties, and the superiority of Alton College to other colleges is
due, not to any difference of system, but to the comparative
reasonableness of its laws and the mildness and judgment with which they
are enforced."
"My system is radically
different from the old one. However, I will not discuss the matter with
you. A mind occupied with the prejudices of the old coercive despotism
can naturally only see in the new a modification of the old, instead of,
as my system is, an entire reversal or abandonment of it."
He shook his head sadly and
said: "You seek to impose your ideas on others, ostracizing those who
reject them. Believe me, mankind has been doing nothing else ever since
it began to pay some attention to ideas. It has been said that a
benevolent despotism is the best possible form of government. I do not
believe that saying, because I believe another one to the effect that
hell is paved with benevolence, which most people, the proverb being too
deep for them, misinterpret as unfulfilled intentions. As if a
benevolent despot might not by any error of judgment destroy his
kingdom, and then say, like Romeo when he got his friend killed, 'I
thought all for the best!' Excuse my rambling. I meant to say, in short,
that though you are benevolent and judicious you are none the less a
despot."
Miss Wilson, at a loss for a
reply, regretted that she had not, before letting him gain so far on
her, dismissed him summarily instead of tolerating a discussion which
she did not know how to end with dignity. He relieved her by adding
unexpectedly:
"Your system was the cause of
my absurd marriage. My wife acquired a degree of culture and
reasonableness from her training here which made her seem a superior
being among the chatterers who form the female seasoning in ordinary
society. I admired her dark eyes, and was only too glad to seize the
excuse her education offered me for believing her a match for me in mind
as well as in body."
Miss Wilson, astonished,
determined to tell him coldly that her time was valuable. But curiosity
took possession of her in the act of utterance, and the words that came
were, "Who was she?"
"Henrietta Jansenius. She is
Henrietta Trefusis, and I am Sidney Trefusis, at your mercy. I see I
have aroused your compassion at last."
"Nonsense!" said Miss Wilson
hastily; for her surprise was indeed tinged by a feeling that he was
thrown away on Henrietta.
"I ran away from her and
adopted this retreat and this disguise in order to avoid her. The usual
rebuke to human forethought followed. I ran straight into her arms—or
rather she ran into mine. You remember the scene, and were probably
puzzled by it."
"You seem to think your
marriage contract a very light matter, Mr. Trefusis. May I ask whose
fault was the separation? Hers, of course."
"I have nothing to reproach her
with. I expected to find her temper hasty, but it was not so—her
behavior was unexceptionable. So was mine. Our bliss was perfect, but
unfortunately, I was not made for domestic bliss—at all events I could
not endure it—so I fled, and when she caught me again I could give no
excuse for my flight, though I made it clear to her that I would not
resume our connubial relations just yet. We parted on bad terms. I fully
intended to write her a sweet letter to make her forgive me in spite of
herself, but somehow the weeks have slipped away and I am still fully
intending. She has never written, and I have never written. This is a
pretty state of things, isn't it, Miss Wilson, after all her advantages
under the influence of moral force and the movement for the higher
education of women?"
"By your own admission, the
fault seems to lie upon your moral training and not upon hers."
"The fault was in the
conditions of our association. Why they should have attracted me so
strongly at first, and repelled me so horribly afterwards, is one of
those devil's riddles which will not be answered until we shall have
traced all the yet unsuspected reactions of our inveterate dishonesty.
But I am wasting your time, I fear. You sent for Smilash, and I have
responded by practically annihilating him. In public, however, you must
still bear with his antics. One moment more. I had forgotten to ask you
whether you are interested in the shepherd whose wife you sheltered on
the night of the storm?"
"He assured me, before he took
his wife away, that he was comfortably settled in a lodging in Lyvern."
"Yes. Very comfortably settled
indeed. For half-a-crown a week he obtained permission to share a
spacious drawing-room with two other families in a ten-roomed house in
not much better repair than his blown-down hovel. This house yields to
its landlord over two hundred a year, or rather more than the rent of a
commodious mansion in South Kensington. It is a troublesome rent to
collect, but on the other hand there is no expenditure for repairs or
sanitation, which are not considered necessary in tenement houses. Our
friend has to walk three miles to his work and three miles back.
Exercise is a capital thing for a student or a city clerk, but to a
shepherd who has been in the fields all day, a long walk at the end of
his work is somewhat too much of a good thing. He begged for an increase
of wages to compensate him for the loss of the hut, but Sir John pointed
out to him that if he was not satisfied his place could be easily filled
by less exorbitant shepherds. Sir John even condescended to explain that
the laws of political economy bind employers to buy labor in the
cheapest market, and our poor friend, just as ignorant of economics as
Sir John, of course did not know that this was untrue. However, as labor
is actually so purchased everywhere except in Downing Street and a few
other privileged spots, I suggested that our friend should go to some
place where his market price would be higher than in merry England. He
was willing enough to do so, but unable from want of means. So I lent
him a trifle, and now he is on his way to Australia. Workmen are the
geese that lay the golden eggs, but they fly away sometimes. I hear a
gong sounding, to remind me of the fight of time and the value of your
share of it. Good-morning!"
Miss Wilson was suddenly moved
not to let him go without an appeal to his better nature. "Mr. Trefusis,"
she said, "excuse me, but are you not, in your generosity to others a
little forgetful of your duty to yourself; and—"
"The first and hardest of all
duties!" he exclaimed. "I beg your pardon for interrupting you. It was
only to plead guilty."
"I cannot admit that it is the
first of all duties, but it is sometimes perhaps the hardest, as you
say. Still, you could surely do yourself more justice without any great
effort. If you wish to live humbly, you can do so without pretending to
be an uneducated man and without taking an irritating and absurd name.
Why on earth do you call yourself Smilash?"
"I confess that the name has
been a failure. I took great pains, in constructing it, to secure a
pleasant impression. It is not a mere invention, but a compound of the
words smile and eyelash. A smile suggests good humor; eyelashes soften
the expression and are the only features that never blemish a face.
Hence Smilash is a sound that should cheer and propitiate. Yet it
exasperates. It is really very odd that it should have that effect,
unless it is that it raises expectations which I am unable to satisfy."
Miss Wilson looked at him
doubtfully. He remained perfectly grave. There was a pause. Then, as if
she had made up her mind to be offended, she said, "Good-morning,"
shortly.
"Good-morning, Miss Wilson. The
son of a millionaire, like the son of a king, is seldom free from mental
disease. I am just mad enough to be a mountebank. If I were a little
madder, I should perhaps really believe myself Smilash instead of merely
acting him. Whether you ask me to forget myself for a moment, or to
remember myself for a moment, I reply that I am the son of my father,
and cannot. With my egotism, my charlatanry, my tongue, and my habit of
having my own way, I am fit for no calling but that of saviour of
mankind—just of the sort they like." After an impressive pause he turned
slowly and left the room.
"I wonder," he said, as he
crossed the landing, "whether, by judiciously losing my way, I can catch
a glimpse of that girl who is like a golden idol?"
Downstairs, on his way to the
door, he saw Agatha coming towards him, occupied with a book which she
was tossing up to the ceiling and catching. Her melancholy expression,
habitual in her lonely moments, showed that she was not amusing herself,
but giving vent to her restlessness. As her gaze travelled upward,
following the flight of the volume, it was arrested by Smilash. The book
fell to the floor. He picked it up and handed it to her, saying:
"And, in good time, here is the
golden idol!"
"What?" said Agatha, confused.
"I call you the golden idol,"
he said. "When we are apart I always imagine your face as a face of
gold, with eyes and teeth of bdellium, or chalcedony, or agate, or any
wonderful unknown stones of appropriate colors."
Agatha, witless and dumb, could
only look down deprecatingly.
"You think you ought to be
angry with me, and you do not know exactly how to make me feel that you
are so. Is that it?"
"No. Quite the contrary. At
least—I mean that you are wrong. I am the most commonplace person you
can imagine—if you only knew. No matter what I may look, I mean."
"How do you know that you are
commonplace?"
"Of course I know," said
Agatha, her eyes wandering uneasily.
"Of course you do not know; you
cannot see yourself as others see you. For instance, you have never
thought of yourself as a golden idol."
"But that is absurd. You are
quite mistaken about me."
"Perhaps so. I know, however,
that your face is not really made of gold and that it has not the same
charm for you that it has for others—for me."
"I must go," said Agatha,
suddenly in haste.
"When shall we meet again?"
"I don't know," she said, with
a growing sense of alarm. "I really must go."
"Believe me, your hurry is only
imaginary. Do you fancy that you are behaving in a manner of quite
ubdued ardor that affected Agatha strangely.
"But first tell me whether it
is new to you or not."
"It is not an emotion at all. I
did not say that it was."
"Do not be afraid of it. It is
only being alone with a man whom you have bewitched. You would be
mistress of the situation if you only knew how to manage a lover. It is
far easier than managing a horse, or skating, or playing the piano, or
half a dozen other feats of which you think nothing."
Agatha colored and raised her
head.
"Forgive me," he said,
interrupting the action. "I am trying to offend you in order to save
myself from falling in love with you, and I have not the heart to let
myself succeed. On your life, do not listen to me or believe me. I have
no right to say these things to you. Some fiend enters into me when I am
at your side. You should wear a veil, Agatha."
She blushed, and stood burning
and tingling, her presence of mind gone, and her chief sensation one of
relief to hear—for she did not dare to see—that he was departing. Her
consciousness was in a delicious confusion, with the one definite
thought in it that she had won her lover at last. The tone of Trefusis's
voice, rich with truth and earnestness, his quick insight, and his
passionate warning to her not to heed him, convinced her that she had
entered into a relation destined to influence her whole life.
"And yet," she said
remorsefully, "I cannot love him as he loves me. I am selfish, cold,
calculating, worldly, and have doubted until now whether such a thing as
love really existed. If I could only love him recklessly and wholly, as
he loves me!"
Smilash was also soliloquizing
as he went on his way.
"Now I have made the poor
child—who was so anxious that I should not mistake her for a
supernaturally gifted and lovely woman as happy as an angel; and so is
that fine girl whom they call Jane Carpenter. I hope they won't exchange
confidences on the subject."
CHAPTER
8
Mrs. Trefusis found her parents
so unsympathetic on the subject of her marriage that she left their
house shortly after her visit to Lyvern, and went to reside with a
hospitable friend. Unable to remain silent upon the matter constantly in
her thoughts, she discussed her husband's flight with this friend, and
elicited an opinion that the behavior of Trefusis was scandalous and
wicked. Henrietta could not bear this, and sought shelter with a
relative. The same discussion arising, the relative said:
"Well, Hetty, if I am to speak
candidly, I must say that I have known Sidney Trefusis for a long time,
and he is the easiest person to get on with I ever met. And you know,
dear, that you are very trying sometimes."
"And so," cried Henrietta,
bursting into tears, "after the infamous way he has treated me I am to
be told that it is all my own fault."
She left the house next day,
having obtained another invitation from a discreet lady who would not
discuss the subject at all. This proved quite intolerable, and Henrietta
went to stay with her uncle Daniel Jansenius, a jolly and indulgent man.
He opined that things would come right as soon as both parties grew more
sensible; and, as to which of them was, in fault, his verdict was, six
of one and half a dozen of the other. Whenever he saw his niece pensive
or tearful he laughed at her and called her a grass widow. Henrietta
found that she could endure anything rather than this. Declaring that
the world was hateful to her, she hired a furnished villa in St. John's
Wood, whither she moved in December. But, suffering much there from
loneliness, she soon wrote a pathetic letter to Agatha, entreating her
to spend the approaching Christmas vacation with her, and promising her
every luxury and amusement that boundless affection could suggest and
boundless means procure. Agatha's reply contained some unlooked-for
information.
"Alton College, Lyvern,
"14th December.
"Dearest Hetty: I don't think I
can do exactly what you want, as I must spend Xmas with Mamma at
Chiswick; but I need not get there until Xmas Eve, and we break up here
on yesterday week, the 20th. So I will go straight to you and bring you
with me to Mamma's, where you will spend Xmas much better than moping in
a strange house. It is not quite settled yet about my leaving the
college after this term. You must promise not to tell anyone; but I have
a new friend here—a lover. Not that I am in love with him, though I
think very highly of him—you know I am not a romantic fool; but he is
very much in love with me; and I wish I could return it as he deserves.
The French say that one person turns the cheek and the other kisses it.
It has not got quite so far as that with us; indeed, since he declared
what he felt he has only been able to snatch a few words with me when I
have been skating or walking. But there has always been at least one
word or look that meant a great deal.
"And now, who do you think he
is? He says he knows you. Can you guess? He says you know all his
secrets. He says he knows your husband well; that he treated you very
badly, and that you are greatly to be pitied. Can you guess now? He says
he has kissed you—for shame, Hetty! Have you guessed yet? He was going
to tell me something more when we were interrupted, and I have not seen
him since except at a distance. He is the man with whom you eloped that
day when you gave us all such a fright—Mr. Sidney. I was the first to
penetrate his disguise; and that very morning I had taxed him with it,
and he had confessed it. He said then that he was hiding from a woman
who was in love with him; and I should not be surprised if it turned out
to be true; for he is wonderfully original—in fact what makes me like
him is that he is by far the cleverest man I have ever met; and yet he
thinks nothing of himself. I cannot imagine what he sees in me to care
for, though he is evidently ensnared by my charms. I hope he won't find
out how silly I am. He called me his golden idol—"
Henrietta, with a scream of
rage, tore the letter across, and stamped upon it. When the paroxysm
subsided she picked up the pieces, held them together as accurately as
her trembling hands could, and read on.
"—but he is not all honey, and
will say the most severe things sometimes if he thinks he ought to. He
has made me so ashamed of my ignorance that I am resolved to stay here
for another term at least, and study as hard as I can. I have not begun
yet, as it is not worth while at the eleventh hour of this term; but
when I return in January I will set to work in earnest. So you may see
that his influence over me is an entirely good one. I will tell you all
about him when we meet; for I have no time to say anything now, as the
girls are bothering me to go skating with them. He pretends to be a
workman, and puts on our skates for us; and Jane Carpenter believes that
he is in love with her. Jane is exceedingly kindhearted; but she has a
talent for making herself ridiculous that nothing can suppress. The ice
is lovely, and the weather jolly; we do not mind the cold in the least.
They are threatening to go without me—good-bye!
"Ever your affectionate
"Agatha."
Henrietta looked round for
something sharp. She grasped a pair of scissors greedily and stabbed the
air with them. Then she became conscious of her murderous impulse, and
she shuddered at it; but in a moment more her jealousy swept back upon
her. She cried, as if suffocating, "I don't care; I should like to kill
her!" But she did not take up the scissors again.
At last she rang the bell
violently and asked for a railway guide. On being told that there was
not one in the house, she scolded her maid so unreasonably that the girl
said pertly that if she were to be spoken to like that she should wish
to leave when her month was up. This check brought Henrietta to her
senses. She went upstairs and put on the first cloak at hand, which was
fortunately a heavy fur one. Then she took her bonnet and purse, left
the house, hailed a passing hansom, and bade the cabman drive her to St.
Pancras.
When the night came the air at
Lyvern was like iron in the intense cold. The trees and the wind seemed
ice-bound, as the water was, and silence, stillness, and starlight,
frozen hard, brooded over the country. At the chalet, Smilash,
indifferent to the price of coals, kept up a roaring fire that glowed
through the uncurtained windows, and tantalized the chilled wayfarer who
did not happen to know, as the herdsmen of the neighborhood did, that he
was welcome to enter and warm himself without risk of rebuff from the
tenant. Smilash was in high spirits. He had become a proficient skater,
and frosty weather was now a luxury to him. It braced him, and drove
away his gloomy fits, whilst his sympathies were kept awake and his
indignation maintained at an exhilarating pitch by the sufferings of the
poor, who, unable to afford fires or skating, warmed themselves in such
sweltering heat as overcrowding produces in all seasons.
It was Smilash's custom to make
a hot drink of oatmeal and water for himself at half-past nine o'clock
each evening, and to go to bed at ten. He opened the door to throw out
some water that remained in the saucepan from its last cleansing. It
froze as it fell upon the soil. He looked at the night, and shook
himself to throw off an oppressive sensation of being clasped in the icy
ribs of the air, for the mercury had descended below the familiar region
of crisp and crackly cold and marked a temperature at which the numb
atmosphere seemed on the point of congealing into black solidity.
Nothing was stirring.
"By George!" he said, "this is
one of those nights on which a rich man daren't think!"
He shut the door, hastened back
to his fire, and set to work at his caudle, which he watched and stirred
with a solicitude that would have amused a professed cook. When it was
done he poured it into a large mug, where it steamed invitingly. He took
up some in a spoon and blew upon it to cool it. Tap, tap, tap, tap!
hurriedly at the door.
"Nice night for a walk," he
said, putting down the spoon; then shouting, "Come in."
The latch rose unsteadily, and
Henrietta, with frozen tears on her cheeks, and an unintelligible
expression of wretchedness and rage, appeared. After an instant of
amazement, he sprang to her and clasped her in his arms, and she,
against her will, and protesting voicelessly, stumbled into his embrace.
"You are frozen to death," he
exclaimed, carrying her to the fire. "This seal jacket is like a sheet
of ice. So is your face" (kissing it). "What is the matter? Why do you
struggle so?"
"Let me go," she gasped, in a
vehement whisper. "I h—hate you."
"My poor love, you are too cold
to hate anyone—even your husband. You must let me take off these
atrocious French boots. Your feet must be perfectly dead."
By this time her voice and
tears were thawing in the warmth of the chalet and of his caresses. "You
shall not take them off," she said, crying with cold and sorrow. "Let me
alone. Don't touch me. I am going away—straight back. I will not speak
to you, nor take off my things here, nor touch anything in the house."
"No, my darling," he said,
putting her into a capacious wooden armchair and busily unbuttoning her
boots, "you shall do nothing that you don't wish to do. Your feet are
like stones. Yes, yes, my dear, I am a wretch unworthy to live. I know
it."
"Let me alone," she said
piteously. "I don't want your attentions. I have done with you for
ever."
"Come, you must drink some of
this nasty stuff. You will need strength to tell your husband all the
unpleasant things your soul is charged with. Take just a little."
She turned her face away and
would not answer. He brought another chair and sat down beside her. "My
lost, forlorn, betrayed one—"
"I am," she sobbed. "You don't
mean it, but I am."
"You are also my dearest and
best of wives. If you ever loved me, Hetty, do, for my once dear sake,
drink this before it gets cold."
She pouted, sobbed, and yielded
to some gentle force which he used, as a child allows herself to be half
persuaded, half compelled, to take physic.
"Do you feel better and more
comfortable now?" he said.
"No," she replied, angry with
herself for feeling both.
"Then," he said cheerfully, as
if she had uttered a hearty affirmative, "I will put some more coals on
the fire, and we shall be as snug as possible. It makes me wildly happy
to see you at my fireside, and to know that you are my own wife."
"I wonder how you can look me
in the face and say so," she cried.
"I should wonder at myself if I
could look at your face and say anything else. Oatmeal is a capital
restorative; all your energy is coming back. There, that will make a
magnificent blaze presently."
"I never thought you deceitful,
Sidney, whatever other faults you might have had."
"Precisely, my love. I
understand your feelings. Murder, burglary, intemperance, or the minor
vices you could have borne; but deceit you cannot abide."
"I will go away," she said
despairingly, with a fresh burst of tears. "I will not be laughed at and
betrayed. I will go barefooted." She rose and attempted to reach the
door; but he intercepted her and said:
"My love, there is something
serious the matter. What is it? Don't be angry with me."
He brought her back to the
chair. She took Agatha's letter from the pocket of her fur cloak, and
handed it to him with a faint attempt to be tragic.
"Read that," she said. "And
never speak to me again. All is over between us."
He took it curiously, and
turned it to look at the signature. "Aha!" he said, "my golden idol has
been making mischief, has she?"
"There!" exclaimed Henrietta.
"You have said it to my face! You have convicted yourself out of your
own mouth!"
"Wait a moment, my dear. I have
not read the letter yet."
He rose and walked to and fro
through the room, reading. She watched him, angrily confident that she
should presently see him change countenance. Suddenly he drooped as if
his spine had partly given way; and in this ungraceful attitude he read
the remainder of the letter. When he had finished he threw it on the
table, thrust his hands deep into his pockets, and roared with laughter,
huddling himself together as if he could concentrate the joke by
collecting himself into the smallest possible compass. Henrietta,
speechless with indignation, could only look her feelings. At last he
came and sat down beside her.
"And so," he said, "on
receiving this you rushed out in the cold and came all the way to Lyvern.
Now, it seems to me that you must either love me very much—"
"I don't. I hate you."
"Or else love yourself very
much."
"Oh!" And she wept afresh. "You
are a selfish brute, and you do just as you like without considering
anyone else. No one ever thinks of me. And now you won't even take the
trouble to deny that shameful letter."
"Why should I deny it? It is
true. Do you not see the irony of all this? I amuse myself by paying a
few compliments to a schoolgirl for whom I do not care two straws more
than for any agreeable and passably clever woman I meet. Nevertheless, I
occasionally feel a pang of remorse because I think that she may love me
seriously, although I am only playing with her. I pity the poor heart I
have wantonly ensnared. And, all the time, she is pitying me for exactly
the same reason! She is conscience-stricken because she is only
indulging in the luxury of being adored 'by far the cleverest man she
has ever met,' and is as heart-whole as I am! Ha, ha! That is the basis
of the religion of love of which poets are the high-priests. Each
worshipper knows that his own love is either a transient passion or a
sham copied from his favorite poem; but he believes honestly in the love
of others for him. Ho, ho! Is it not a silly world, my dear?"
"You had no right to make love
to Agatha. You have no right to make love to anyone but me; and I won't
bear it."
"You are angry because Agatha
has infringed your monopoly. Always monopoly! Why, you silly girl, do
you suppose that I belong to you, body and soul?—that I may not be moved
except by your affection, or think except of your beauty?"
"You may call me as many names
as you please, but you have no right to make love to Agatha."
"My dearest, I do not recollect
calling you any names. I think you said something about a selfish
brute."
"I did not. You called me a
silly girl."
"But, my love, you are."
"And so YOU are. You are
thoroughly selfish."
"I don't deny it. But let us
return to our subject. What did we begin to quarrel about?"
"I am not quarrelling, Sidney.
It is you."
"Well, what did I begin to
quarrel about?"
"About Agatha Wylie."
"Oh, pardon me, Hetty; I
certainly did not begin to quarrel about her. I am very fond of her—more
so, it appears, than she is of me. One moment, Hetty, before you
recommence your reproaches. Why do you dislike my saying pretty things
to Agatha?"
Henrietta hesitated, and said:
"Because you have no right to. It shows how little you care for me."
"It has nothing to do with you.
It only shows how much I care for her."
"I will not stay here to be
insulted," said Hetty, her distress returning. "I will go home."
"Not to-night; there is no
train."
"I will walk."
"It is too far."
"I don't care. I will not stay
here, though I die of cold by the roadside."
"My cherished one, I have been
annoying you purposely because you show by your anger that you have not
ceased to care for me. I am in the wrong, as I usually am, and it is all
my fault. Agatha knows nothing about our marriage."
"I do not blame you so much,"
said Henrietta, suffering him to place her head on his shoulder; "but I
will never speak to Agatha again. She has behaved shamefully to me, and
I will tell her so."
"No doubt she will opine that
it is all your fault, dearest, and that I have behaved admirably.
Between you I shall stand exonerated. And now, since it is too cold for
walking, since it is late, since it is far to Lyvern and farther to
London, I must improvise some accommodation for you here."
"But—"
"But there is no help for it.
You must stay."
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