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CITY OF CLEARWATER COMMISSION HEARINGS RE: THE CHURCH OF SCIENTOLOGY |
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EXHIBIT IX: AFFIDAVIT OF ANONYMOUS (ANN BAILEY) In the Sea Org sexuality, sexual intercourse and reproduction were all classified under the second dynamic. This was the urge a person had to survive in the above areas. The urge for survival could be taken to mean survival for the body only. In Scientology, though, there is the belief that the thetan survives or surcomes on these levels too. This belief leads to some unorthodox interpretations about sex. It became apparent to me that as a Sea Org member at Asho, there was one very strong law concerning relationships. S.O. members did not have any sexual contact with public students or preclears. At Asho anyway this law was observed rigidly amongst the staff. An interpretation of the S.O. 's feeling about sex with public persons was the the S.O. was "above" such activities. We were so "elite", that sex with the public would "spoil" our control over the public. I think that may have been partially true. How ever, there was no law preventing S.O. members from having contact with other S.O. members. In fact this was expected if one had been with the S.O. for an appreciable length of time. Marriages in the S.O. were common, as birth control of any sort was not encouraged, advancing pregnancies, would cause staff to marry, when they might not otherwise. I could never understand the amount and frequency of "swapping partners" in the S.O. This went on constantly. One week two staff would be married. (Scientology marriage ceremony) Then the woman would become pregnant. A few months later, she would marry another S.O. member, have the baby and then marry another S.O. member etc. I don't know if this is totally understood, that when a couple married they obtain a marriage certificate from the city hall, but it meant nothing. This was all done as part of a "shore story" to keep legal hassles on legal marriage from reaching the S.O. If a couple wanted to divorce, they just broke up. There were never formal divorces in the S.O., and they didn't have to get permission from anyone to end their relationship. There was never much property to divide between the two anyway. Since any children were at the Cadet Org, that didn't matter either. I observed all this during my first year in the S.O. It bothered me. Here were all the staff, supposedly ethical people, who were all knowing about humanity, busting up relationships all the time. I never resolved the conflict within me about this. And I never told anyone my feelings. I independently decided that I would have no sexual contact with anyone in the S.O. I totally suppressed my own sexuality and decided I would not play that game as an S.O. member. For a year and one half no one bothered me about my attitude concerning sex. I began to notice however, that all the girls who were single when they joined the S.O. were by now paired off or married, except me. I still refused to form a relationship with anyone. In late 1975, 1 was told to report to HCO. The HAS at that time was Lee Heerling. She informed me that I was to report to the Fifield Manor and go to the seventh floor. She gave me no other information. I did this without knowing why 1 was going. At the Manor I was directed to the elevator and went to the seventh floor. The entire floor was elaborately furnished to the point of suffocation. A S.O. member appeared and showed me to a door that was partly open. I went into a very large living room with heavy curtains, pile carpet, overstuffed chairs and clean to the point of obsession. Sitting in one of the chairs, drinking what looked like sherry, was a heavy set older man. He had reddish grey hair slightly long in the back. He was wearing a white shirt and black pants. Also a black tie, black shoes highly polished. He didn't say a word and slowly got up, motioned me to follow him into the next room. I thought he was an auditor or ethics officer and that I was to have either a session or an interview. I followed him. I found myself in a lavish bedroom. This still didn't worry me as sometimes interviews and sessions were held in bedrooms at the Hollywood Inn for staff. There was a small table set up with an E-meter on it and again I thought about a session. Without a word he suddenly began to undress me. At this point a transformation took place in me. I was not sexually attracted to this man at all. In fact, I was repelled. I did not want to sleep with him. Yet, I felt really chilled and cold to the bone at that moment. I actually sensed real danger in the room. In an instant I realized the calculated power coming from this person. If I resisted I knew that my punishment would be extreme. His eyes were so blank, no emotion, no interaction, nothing was there. I make the decision to not resist whatever happened. I realized it would be a bad mistake for me to do so. It's as if you meet someone and innately you know they are completely divorced from reality. In another world and you realized to provoke that person would be extremely dangerous for you. If a person is crazy you can't predict their actions toward you. I let him undress me without resisting. He then undresses and I lay on the bed. I wasn't afraid of actual sexual intercourse with him at that moment. I figured I might as well get it over with. I was totally mentally unprepared for what occurred. He lay on top of me. As far as I could tell he had no erection. None. However, using his hand in some way he managed to get his penis inside me. Then for the next hour he did absolutely nothing at all and I mean nothing. This was not "tantra sex" as believe me there was no give and take between us. None. After the first twenty five minutes I became about as frightened as I have been in my life in this situation. First of all, I felt that in some perverse way he was telling me that he hated my guts as a female. Then, I began to feel that my mind was being ripped away from me by force. That was the worst of all. I really felt he "coveted" an aspect of my personality and he wanted it. This was not loving, joyful sexual intercourse between people who wish to merge their bodies and share their minds. This was weird, total control on a level I could not fathom at that time. I had no idea what was happening. After half an hour I really thought I was going crazy. I couldn't move my body from underneath him and I could feel he had no erection either. He wouldn't look at me, but kept his head averted to the side and just gazed into space. I had to discipline myself to keep from screaming because I felt I was having a nervous breakdown. Then I got the terrible thought that he was dead. He was hardly breathing. Then I thought he would kill me. My thoughts got very morbid. And all the while the feeling that something was trying to draw my mind out of me. A true example of mental rape. It really was. After an hour he got up and walked out. I just lay there for about ten minutes. Then mechanically I got dressed. Instantly after that I started crying hysterically. I cried and cried and cried. I wasn't afraid of becoming pregnant. I was so afraid of whatever had been going on in this man's head. Finally, when I couldn't cry anymore, I went downstairs and took a bus back to Asho. I didn't say a word to anyone. Months went by after this. No one approached me sexually at all. I got my period on schedule which made me feel a little gratified at least. One night I was working late. Larry Norton who was now the deputy C.O. came into my area and asked if I wanted a ride back to the Inn. This seemed a little strange as he was a senior officer, 0T7, native state, class 7 auditor, but I accepted. On the way in the car he asked me if I had ever fallen in love sexually in the S.O. I said no. He said he thought that was true as I was much too powerful theta wise to be controlled. When we got to the Inn we went up in the elevator together and as I was about to get off at my floor he said he needed to talk to me. I said o.k as he was an officer and I thought a friend. Also he was married, also he was black. The only black S.O. member I can recall. Not many blacks are Scientologists. We went to the eighth floor at the Inn into a little bedroom. He sat on the bed and started talking about eight being the symbol for infinity and the highest level of OT-ness. I thought that was interesting but couldn't figure out why he was telling me. Then he said Ron worked in eight year cycles and that I had been born in the eighth month of the year (August). He then said that orders had come down lines that I was to conceive a child. This really shocked me. He wouldn't tell me who had sent the order. He just said that my abilities were such that the S.O. needed me to have a baby. Then with another word he pulled me up, hurriedly undressed me and threw me on the bed. Again, I felt the same feeling that I must not fight him. He got undressed and for the next hour the exact same performance that had happened to me at the Manor was repeated. This time it was even more intense. I guess he had his orders too. Afterwards, I felt ripped apart mentally. As he was getting dressed I couldn't stand it anymore. I was in tears again and I said to him, "Sir, I can't understand what were you doing to me?" He looked at me and said, "Ann, you haven't see the OT materials for OT 7 yet, but you know what you are. You are an invisible spirit operating your body. You and I actually live in a totally different universe far away from this one. This earth, this galaxy, our bodies are just pictures we are mocking up to play and have a game. Sex for a thetan is nothing. It's the postulates and control of mind and body that is the prize. If I postulate you will have a baby from the viewpoint of my home universe, then you will. You are under my command coming from far away. I can make your body do what I want." Then he left. I was so mixed up. I had been trained to believe everything he said yet I couldn't believe he had just told me what he had. I felt really defenseless. I cried all night. A month later, I got my period. A month after that Larry Norton called me into his office and told me to go to Ethics. The Ethics Officer assigned me a condition of treason because I had disobeyed command intention and was not pregnant. I had to do amends for this crime. After this the G.O. hitched onto me and I never had any other sexual relations in the S.O. It was made apparent I was a failure in this area. -NAME WITHHELD -
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